They held me down every night, I didn't have much to say.
I didn't give up the life. I closed my eyes and closed myself
and closed my world and never opened up to anything that could get me at all.

I had to close down everything, I had to close down my mind.
Too many things could cut me, too much could make me blind.
I've seen so much in so many places, so many heartaches, so many faces, so many dirty things.
You couldn't even believe.

I broke everything new again, everything that I'd owned.
Extreme ways I know will part the colours of my sea.
The perfect coloured sea