Happy new year to you, too.
I still miss you.

A constant fight between who I was, who I am and who I want to be.
Between illusion and reality. Between feeling everything and nothing.
Now, all that's left is complete emptiness. Dark, cold emptiness.
The only time I can feel something, is when I feel pain.


I'm gone.

Even though I've never called it perfect...
When I die, I want to know it all was worth it,
I want to know that I tried my best with
Embracing every moment that I was blessed with.
Every life, every death, every time that I wept
Every moment, every person, every line that I said
Every night, every day, every time every place
Every kiss, every wish, every side of the maze
Every cut, every bruise, every love that I'd lose
Every time that I broke and the times that I grew
Every drop of rain that these clouds would spew
To help form the man that I amounted to
And I'm thankful, that I am who I am
And I've been where I've been and I came out grateful
When it's finally time to make an exit,
Just know, that I don't regret a single second.

Doors slam
Lights black
You're gone
Come back
Stay gone
Stay clean
I need you to need me
So we're bound to linger on
We drink the fatal drop
Then love until we bleed
Then fall apart in parts

You wasted your times
On my heart
You've burned
And if bridges gotta fall, then you'll fall, too.